The world feels loud these days, too damn loud for me! It is the sorta loud where everything starts blending together. The anger. The misinformation. The constant outrage cycles. The hot takes. The factions all yelling at this, that, and the other things, each dead certain they’re right. After a sustained bombardment of noise, a sort of positive feedback loop kicks in. For the non techies, that is like when you yell into a bad microphone and it just keeps winding itself up, shriller and the louder the shrill, the louder it makes itself. The thing about the noise is that if you are exposed to it long enough you can start forgetting what the actual signal sounds like, you become acclimated to the noise. When we hit that point, we can easily forget that truth has tone, dignity has tone, humanity has tone and right now those tones are being drowned out by all this damn noise.
Working in technology for my entire adult life, especially my
experience with high power transmitters, situates me to understand and think
about signal to noise ratios more than most folks. Not in some abstract way, in a way that only 40
years of experience with signal to noise can give a person. I see everyone contributing to the feedback
loop, in ways we may not even recognize. Some of it big, like what we share with others,
how fast we react, whether we read past the headline, whether we treat people
like avatars or people from the protection of distance and the buffer of our
devices.
Then there is the small consistent actions we take, noticing
when a coworker is off and handing them a pack of lifesavers or texting that
friend back right away vs leaving it unread, or even taking a breath before we
ad one more opinion or hot take to the already burning pile. Being a helper is signal amplification work,
not noise amplification work. The small
stuff may seem small but it is what changes the room. Choose to be steady when everything around you
is trying wind you up. I got this tattoo
to be my constant reminder to pause, think and check in with my values, which I hold in my heart, and then determine if I am feeding the
signal or the noise.
The more I think about this the more it actually feels like
we are living in world with bad filters.
When stray harmonics are introduced into things they contribute
to the feedback loop as noise and we install filters specifically to remove
those frequencies, for example if you are old enough to remember the 60hz hum in
your fancy wood sided Kenwood receiver when the caps started dying, you
understand what I mean. When filters go
bad, or drift off frequency, the downstream signal chain gets fuzzy or distorted.
The signal is still there but what comes out sounds like hot
garbage. In today’s world the filters are
no longer mechanical and inert. Todays filters
are the algorithmic automatons running our feeds, they are far from inert and designed
to keep us scrolling. This is evident when half baked headlines of
outrage of one sort or the other out runs the truth of things and it seems the
collective we have the attention span of a Bolivian fruit fly, and the algorithms
know it. We can see how easily distortion becomes our
reality, the algorithmic engagement engines work hard at that.
Some days it feels like we are compressing our humanity just
to fit into the feed. In audio, and video
when you compress too aggressively it strips out the warmth, the nuance and all
the things that makes audio feel alive and full and the things that make video
so dynamic. The compression on the old
analog TV is a good example, that looked washed out and lifeless. I feel like our habits now drive us to do
that to each other. We flatten folks to their
worst moment, their loudest mistake and pretend that actually describes the
original signal. The world and those who
live in it are not binary, we are magnificently complex and quirky individuals
who all have something to add to the greater good, foibles, skeletons and all. Humans are not MP3 files, we are not meant to
be reduced until all the good frequencies get lost in the noise.
And then there is interference. Every engineer has dealt with that as some
point, some spurious source bleeding into the wires, some device screaming on the
same frequency or that blasted 5th harmonic or some trash noise
signal bouncing around inside the chassis.
We got the same damn thing happening in almost every aspect of our lives.
Everyone broadcasting all the time, the
damn ground is floating and the power supply hash is wreaking havoc. Half the time we are reacting to cross talk
from folks we don’t know, will never meet in places we will not go, and this is
on issues that both of us barely understand in the first place. No wonder clarity feels so scarce. We need a faraday cage to block out the interference.
While this almost sounds like me waxing philosophical, I want
to be clear, I am no Saint in this. I am
not walking the noble eight fold path with the discipline of a monk. I’m stumbling along like a drunken sailor, who
just won’t stop trying. I very much
contribute to the noise, I recognize this posting is part of that noise. Sometimes I react to quickly, sometimes I let
my frustration lead instead of my better self. But the older I get, the more I realize my
noise footprint matters, no more cranking it up to 11. All of us contribute, we have obligation to each
other to file the STA, that is Smitty speak getting permission to crank that
transmitter down to low power. Reducing the
power does not mean shutting it down. Cranking it down is a choice, and intentional
act to ensure our better selves lead, in all situations. Asking ourselves is what Im about to feed
into my transmitter adding signal clarity or am I injecting noise. That little pause, that check in, that is
signal work too.
Over my life I have
noticed a constant, every helper I’ve ever known or seen is basically a walking
signal amplifier. It’s a special amplifier,
it allows to spin off more positive and good into the universe than we do negative
and bad. They always seem to show up
calm when things get chaotic. They offer
presence instead of gas for the fire. They
tune in the quiet stuff that everyone else misses. They say the hard truth in a way that folks
can actually hear it. Helpers don’t crank
up the volume or the power, they improve the fidelity. They help everyone in the room hear the parts
that matter.
Look Y’all, at the
end of the day measuring signal to noise is simple, we measure what comes through
clean vs what just adds static. You look at what you’re putting out into the universe
and you ask yourself, does this make the signal clearer or just louder. If its noise, crank that shit down. If its signal, power it up because truth,
dignity and humanity still cut through when we the stop feeding the freaking feedback
loop. If ya wanna remember what the
signal sounds like, find a helper or better yet, be one.
Then again, at the end
of the day I am not trying to win the internet.
I am just trying to stay human in a world that has gotten really loud. Measuring SNR is not a fancy thing, it’s a gut
check, is what I am spooling into the
universe going to help someone hear the truth, or is it just more static? So
here is what I am choosing. I am
choosing the pause. I am choosing the small
acts of kindness. I am choosing to be
the kind of person who improves the fidelity in the room instead of creating a
feedback loop that does nothing but screech at us. I am going to keep checking that tattoo like
its my own SNR meter, and keep trying to make the music cleaner instead of
louder. It’s a reminder, pause, check
the meter, and don’t feed the noise. Maybe,
just maybe the most radical thing we can do is to be steady in the turbulence. Send the strongest signal you can with the
simple message, they are not alone and that you are here for them.
Great analogy, Smitty! 🥰
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